We Can Be Positive That Our Drinking (Drugging Or Eating) Was Negative

People in Western society; and probably in most other societies are immersed in alcohol use. Billions of dollars are spent on encouraging the consumption of alcohol. Drink this beer if you want to attract the ladies, (or a man), be the most popular person at the party, or feel like you’re on vacation in a tropical isle. Just take a step back and one can see how ridiculous these claims are.
That being said, in almost every culture, life events including birth, marriage and death involve alcohol. When used responsibly there is nothing intrinsically wrong with it. Most of us in the program are perfectly fine with other people drinking in a reasonable fashion. The problem is that we are not one of those people who can drink in a measured way. As soon as we have a drink, we are on our way to drinking to excess. Once that happens, we in quick order find ourselves right back where we were before we entered the program. We need to admit that we can never drink safely. The same concept applies to a food addict who can never eat in an undisciplined way. It also applies to drug addicts in the program who must on occasion take prescription medication. In all of these cases we need to remember our last drunk, run or binge.

Personal Reflection: Do I need to be reminded what my life was like before sobriety?

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Either You Is Or You Ain’t

For years we danced around our addiction. “I’m really not an alcoholic, I’m just a heavy drinker”. “I’m really not a food addict, I’ve just always been a big eater”. “I’m really not a drug addict, because a doctor prescribed these meds for me”. We could have gone on for an entire lifetime just sitting on the fence about our addiction. The problem with not making a statement of admission is that as long as we failed to do so, we were able to remain in denial about our drug of choice. Even if we attended meetings and got a sponsor, little of the program stuck. It was like we were encased in a sheath of WD 40 oil of denial. Every time someone gave us a suggestion we nodded our head in agreement, but on some level it just slipped away because there was no surface for it to adhere to. We clung to that false hope that we weren’t that drug addict or alcoholic. We reasoned that as long as we denied it, then somehow our problems were less serious than they actually appeared. When we had the courage to admit that we were powerless over our drug of choice; we became like a magnet attracting the gift of sobriety.

Personal Reflection: Am I still in denial about some aspect of my addiction of choice?